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"If..." (Complete the sentence and write your ficlette. Your ficlette must begin with this sentence.) ... Challenge #133

If only she had stayed with Saetan any one of the many, many times he had asked her to as a child. Everytime he asked her during each visit when he saw there was something wrong, she had wanted to stay. She had wanted to stay with him and the family more than anything, but she didn't think she could. Honour and duty prevented it -- or so she had thought and felt.

If only she had grabbed ahold of Wilhemina and just fled to Kaeleer as quickly as they could have been able to. As soon as she felt the darkness and the danger increasing she should have. She should have run. She should have.

If only she had done as Daemon had practically begged her to do and went to safety with Saetan and never come back to Chaillot or Beldon Mor. Could that last night have been prevented? If she had fled like he warned her to, would Daemon have escaped being hurt? Would he have avoided spending so much time in the Twisted Kingdom?




There were so many ifs in her life and so many times that she had dwelled on each and every one of them. Every time her thoughts beat at her mind until she had been forced to drop to her bed in exhaustion. Telling her that she had been a child when everything had been being destroyed around her didn't help. She had known things even then, so why hadn't she listened to the ones she loved and ran to where she was safe before everything had been destroyed in a single night?

If only she had listened to those who did truly care about her. Maybe then... maybe then Daemon wouldn't have had to hurt himself to break free of the Ring and his grief over what had happened to her wouldn't have started his slide into the Twisted Kingdom.

If only her relatives had loved her and protected her like her family had. If only they had accepted her and saw whom she was. Maybe then... maybe then Chaillot and Beldon Mor could have been saved. Maybe then... maybe then she wouldn't have been forced to break Alexandra so many years later.


Muse: Jaenelle Angelline SaDiablo
Fandom: "The Black Jewels" trilogy; Misc. Books
Words: 387

Date: 2006-07-08 11:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] klmeri.livejournal.com
If Jaenelle had done things differently, maybe she would not be where she is today--with that family she loves and who loves her in return.

So many if's to dwell on, Jaenelle, and what do they cause you but sadness and heartache? I say that the past is gone. If there were mistakes, remember to circumvent them in the future. But do not hurt yourself over something you do not have the power to change.

Date: 2006-07-18 03:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] light-of-estel.livejournal.com
Ooooh well written, now pardon me while I favorite you as you write things pertaining to the BJT and very few do that.


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