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kaeleers_heartIt's hard to settle on one mind in the face of so many.
I know that there are the minds and consequences of a night filled with too many images, people and blood.
When Saetan offered me a home, I should have taken Whilheminia and ran to him. Had I done that, none of what followed would have happened. But I couldn't. Rose couldn't do it alone and then Rose was killed...her throat slit by "Uncle" Bobby.
That night, that last horrible night...bed and walls painted with blood...
Leland? No, Leland was a follower of her mother and the men. She was weak, and though she loved her daughters, she had never once stood up for me. She cried in embarrassment when I tried to share my world with her.
Phillip...I don't know if he even had a mind of his own to be changed. I tried to talk to him, but he sent me there as well. He didn't believe me or in me and never helped me.
Robert... He was the one that started sending me to that place. He was the one that murdered my best friend.
No, if I could change just one mind at just one time...
Alexandra.
I would change Alexandra's mind about sending me to Briarwood that last night.
Alexandra was the mother, the Queen of Chaillot. She was the one that was supposed to love me, supposed to protect me.
She never did.
She believed Robert when he said that there was something wrong with my mind. How easy it was to blame the problems of an embarrassing child who apparently didn't wear any jewels at all.
Sick mind girl to make up such lies...
She sent me to Briarwood that last night, and unleashed Hell all around.
Bed and walls singing with blood...Surreal killing Greer...Daemon...Saetan...
She sent me there and Dorothea's puppet found me...brutalized me.
What followed was that I stayed away from my body for over two years...Daemon slid into the Twisted Kingdom because of the words of a grieving brother...Saetan got older and was attacked by Heketah...the taint spread and more people died.
Yes. If I could go back and change just one person's mind, I would change Alexandra's.
Muse: Jaenelle Angelline SaDiablo
Words: 385
Fandom: "The Black Jewels" Trilogy; Misc. Books
I know that there are the minds and consequences of a night filled with too many images, people and blood.
When Saetan offered me a home, I should have taken Whilheminia and ran to him. Had I done that, none of what followed would have happened. But I couldn't. Rose couldn't do it alone and then Rose was killed...her throat slit by "Uncle" Bobby.
That night, that last horrible night...bed and walls painted with blood...
Leland? No, Leland was a follower of her mother and the men. She was weak, and though she loved her daughters, she had never once stood up for me. She cried in embarrassment when I tried to share my world with her.
Phillip...I don't know if he even had a mind of his own to be changed. I tried to talk to him, but he sent me there as well. He didn't believe me or in me and never helped me.
Robert... He was the one that started sending me to that place. He was the one that murdered my best friend.
No, if I could change just one mind at just one time...
Alexandra.
I would change Alexandra's mind about sending me to Briarwood that last night.
Alexandra was the mother, the Queen of Chaillot. She was the one that was supposed to love me, supposed to protect me.
She never did.
She believed Robert when he said that there was something wrong with my mind. How easy it was to blame the problems of an embarrassing child who apparently didn't wear any jewels at all.
Sick mind girl to make up such lies...
She sent me to Briarwood that last night, and unleashed Hell all around.
Bed and walls singing with blood...Surreal killing Greer...Daemon...Saetan...
She sent me there and Dorothea's puppet found me...brutalized me.
What followed was that I stayed away from my body for over two years...Daemon slid into the Twisted Kingdom because of the words of a grieving brother...Saetan got older and was attacked by Heketah...the taint spread and more people died.
Yes. If I could go back and change just one person's mind, I would change Alexandra's.
Muse: Jaenelle Angelline SaDiablo
Words: 385
Fandom: "The Black Jewels" Trilogy; Misc. Books
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Date: 2005-03-10 11:34 pm (UTC)I honestly never thought she would have the courage to defy me. Not knowing... what the consequences would be.